Today was a good day. We got together with some friends that we haven't hung out with in a while. I cooked chili and cornbread. You know the stuff that sticks to your ribs after you eat it. There were kids and friends and even baby Ryan. This is the time of year that you gather to be with friends and family. The Christmas tree is up and the fire is lit. A sure sign that Santa needs to get thier sh*t together for next week.

Tomorrow is Friday and I am so glad that this week is over. I need to get refreshed for the next week to come. Randy's services will be on Saturday with the wake at my Sisters after. The family is so sensitive about the things that time and circumstances have changed. I am sure there will be some delicate issues that we will encounter. I just hope that everyone takes the high road and realizes that time has gone by and things and people have changed. I have for sure. As my family has changed so have I. We have all chosen different paths and weather you like it or not...some of our paths are very far apart. I remember when my Mom was living with me and the Dr's said she would be passing ...(she hasn't yet) ... she said after I am gone you probably won't talk to some of your brothers and sister..and guess what I wouldn't then, and probably won't now. My life has taken me to a place that I need to be. I have enough drama of my own without them. I certainly don't want my kids involved in the things that they surround themselves with. Life is hard enough all on it's own. I hope that as difficult and strange that I am that my kids have it a little...a lot better than I did when I grew up. Some of the things being very simple..like having the lights on, water, gas and just having transportation. I think you have to go without before you can really appreciate having these things. But, I would rather that my kids never have to know that hardship. Sooo I guess that is enough for tonight. I am going to sit here by the fire, watch HGTV and drink a beer before I go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow is full of sunshine.