So.... it's been a while. There have been a lot of things happen since my last blog. I understand my grandson's heart defect a little more. The name of it is Teterology of Follot....sounds bad huh. You can google it and know he will need heart surgery soon in his life. I am sure I will keep you informed...with my daughters permission as this goes on.

This brings me to tell you a story of my other pregnancy. You see, after Fontayne, the chances were low and the doctors were not very optimistic about me ever being pregnant again. They were wrong....

I don't want to change the subject...but, you know medicine is just an educated guess right? There is a lot of science and statistics...and ultimately it is exactly a best guess for the situation. Normally they are very close...but you never know. Research and education on your own could never hurt. That doesn't mean second guess them like you did eight plus years of college and however many years practicing what you learned. It just means be educated about you!

On to the subject. After I learned I was in fact pregnant with Autumn, all I could do was say that I would do whatever that I could to get her here. Of course I didn't know who she was at the time. I remember calling the Doctor to get my first appointment. They were like....we can wait....I said no, we can't. I am high risk and I need to see the doctor as soon as possible. (This wouldn't be the first time in my life that a doctor would recommend that I seek professional help.) After the nurse reviewed my record she did concede that I would need to be seen soon. I made the appointment. Of course I still didn't think it was soon enough. I thought I should have been in the next day and be the most important pregnant person in the eyes of any doctor.

I remember walking into the appointment wishing...dreaming...and saying "I will do anything to get this baby here"....."alive!" I guess that I was in my own world. There wasn't anyone as impatient as me. I was just another OB appointment to the staff and to the doctor.

Then he read my chart......

I think it was more of a reality to him than me..but I seen his face change. We had several tests to do and a lot of things had to happen in a little amount of time....and the timing needed to be precise.

I will write more later...this is it for tonight, the story for me has a ton more words and I feel better writing about them. I hope they will help someone someday.